Death always drives me to my knees. The death of a loved one is such a profound loss that leaves you emotionally spent. My prayer during those trying times has constantly been, “God if you don’t stand up in me, I will not be able to stand.” Of course, God never failed to answer my prayer. He never failed to strengthen me and carry me through.
But, this time it was different. This time I did not pray that prayer. This time I did not want to be the “strong one.” This time I wanted to be weak. I wanted to be left alone to feel the pain of losing my beloved brother and friend. However, what I was feeling was conflicting with what I believed, and what was expected of me. I knew the scriptures to say and the prayers to pray, and I even knew that God would answer me, but I did not want to say a scripture or pray a prayer. I wanted to sit with the pain of my loss.
Then, I received an encouraging email from a sister friend quoting 2 Corinthians 12:9-10. These scriptures spoke to my heart and released me to be okay with “being weak.”
“And He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12-9:10.
I could then cry out to the Lord the truth of what I was feeling, “I am weak; I am weak.” I realized my faith had not failed because I was weak. The Word had not failed because I was weak, and feeling weak did not make me a weak Christian. To the contrary, it was okay for in my weakness He was already being strong in me.
The New Living Translations states, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” Knowing this, I could give myself permission to be weak, because in my weakness, God’s power was at its best.
We are humans living a spiritual experience from a mortal state. The loss of anyone from our lives that we profoundly love, will give us the experience of profound devastation. I had this experience at a very young age. To lose your mother as you are still striving to become a woman, is beyond devastation. But it is a part of life. All of us have a unique journey specific to the lessons we are meant to learn in our lives. We can fight and resist it, or we can try and find ways to embrace the fact that GOD always has our back and knows that the experiences we are meant to experience, play a fundamental part in our development as unique human beings. This life is beautiful, but it is also challenging, devastating and very trying at times. Those of us who want to embrace life at its fullest, must also embrace tragedy, devastation, goodness, wondrousness, beauty, calamity, destruction, creation, and the miraculous. Life is the combination of it all. The quality of our lives is directly impacted by how we choose to relate to the multiplicities of life. So . . . do you embrace it all . . . or do you try, with your brilliant self . . . to fight the flow of life? Whatever your plan of action . . . I pray it brings you peace, love and happiness!
Thanks for sharing this message of Hope with us. I can only imagine how it feels to lose a brother you loved so dearly. Only God can heal your pain and sorrow. Thanks again and welcome back. Love Yordanos
Thank you Yordanis. Good to hear from you. You’re so right, only God can and God will!!!
Welcome back Encourager Dear, you’ve been missed but covered in prayer. Your testimony brings with it peace.
Thank you so much for your inspirational blog. Especially this one. It really touched my heart. God Bless You!!!!
Thank you for letting me know this touched your heart. That means everything.
Love it! Welcome back!
Thanks cousin. Appreciate the support.
That is so beautiful and heartfelt. Your Blogs are your ministry. Keep letting God use you. Miss you.
Thanks Janie. I appreciate the encouragement and support.
Of course I’m balling . . . Tears of Joy!! Thanks for sharing and encouraging us!
Thank you for sharing a timely Word with me. The Lord used you and I am sincerely grateful.
Thank you for sharing. You are always a blessing!!!
Thanks Deb, I appreciate the encouragement.
Praise The Lord!!! Welcome back Dear Encourager!!
Thanks for the message, thanks for writing again and sharing. The message speaks to me. I have to absorb this message and live in the consciousness of it.
And Now I understand that in my weakness, God’s power works best.
Thank you Reazon. I appreciate your support. Peace and blessings!
He carries our sorrows in His work on the cross. Sorrow literally refers to anguish, affliction, grief and pain. Jesus took these things and paid the price with His own blood for us! We need to remember and believe that God desires to heal our broken heart and bind up our wounds.
Enough said, huh.